This last week has been a bustle of birthday, which meant baking, shops, and all round busyiness. By the end of Thursday Daniel’s birthday my legs and back were actually burning. I got into bed at 11:30pm with a to do list the size of my arm for the next day. Literally closed my eyes and then the alarm went off again. The rest of it was a blur. I forgot to be emotional and sad about DJ turning 1, I was too busy to realise that his baby stage is now gone. I wasn’t present. When constantly moving for the next thing, wishing for the next planning for the future. How can you be present?
Tomorrow is Daniel’s first birthday. Our little baby boy is turning one. Fifty two weeks, three hundred and sixty five days of life to be celebrated. I am emotional. Happy, excited, sad and nostalgic. So much to say so little words to say it in. And so I write, in hopes of releasing this build up and find someone else who shares this feeling somewhere. (more…)
“No Daniel, don’t play with the wipes!” I motioned for Ian to help me. Daniel’s little fingers can do some real damage. “He is so naughty.” I continued as Daniel laughed. He is 11 months old, and as much as I think that he does things to get reactions out of us. I KNOW that he is in fact NOT naughty.
Naughty is definted as badly behaved, disobedient children.
My boobs and I have a love hate relationship because of breastfeeding. Now I’m not talking about the kind of “hate that I love you”, that Rihanna and Neyo have. The kind I’m talking about is where there are literally days where I am counting the minutes till it’s over. Yep, your lows are THAT low, I wrote about it here and here. I have spent a lot of time hating on it actually. Many many minutes of sighing and wishing for it to be over. (more…)
“Your car insurance unfortunately doesn’t cover that ma’am”, came a voice from inside my phone. These words pierced through me like knives, I was stunned for what felt like hours inside of minutes. “I don’t understand – what do you mean? I thought that…” my voice trailed, tears stung in my eyes as it suddenly occurred to me.